fuck lah. i'm damn pissed now. i'm on the flight back on the seventeenth and my flight to perth is in the morning the next day. i told them how many freaking times i have to come back earlier but noooo, they said "we have to come back as a team". that's bullshit. if we had to, we wouldn't be split into eight freaking groups. by the time i get home, it'll be around 9 at night. and i have to unpack and pack for the next day? what do they want me to do? not sleep? people like the sports school people and ting and sam and zach and carol can come back on the sixteenth and we have to come back on the seventeenth? even my jiaolian's coming back earlier than me. wtf lah. ssa's screwed up. should they have booked tickets much earlier and not made it last minute? how dumb is that?

change of plans. we'll be leaving on sunday night at 9 instead of on monday. and i had to learn that from the newspaper. how nice. there'll be no aircon in phuket, and it'll be four to a room. oh, how will i live without aircon?! i should sleep in a tub of water or something.

i wonder why we still have centralised training. should we be more focused on our own training now? idk. i don't really like them. i have to swim fast for everything and the warm up itself is like our pre main set. we're gonna have a luncheon tomorrow too. we're gonna get those long coats. cool huh, although the colour's like an orangey red. O_O. and phiten compression suits and personalised caps. i love those caps. they look nice.

i'm not sure whether i should bring my pillow. i'm tempted to, but wouldn't it be nicer to bring my bolster instead? sometimes i end up sleeping on it and hugging my pillow instead. hahah. my reluctance to go for such a long time in such a place is between wanting to get hit by a bus and getting torn from limb to limb by sharks. yep, i'm that reluctant to go. but i have to. so i'll sign off now to get all my stuff done. seeya.

gah. i give up. my previous post is so.. ugh. messy. i can't fix it! ):< stupid uploading of pics.

world cup was not bad. yesterday, i did a 1.12.57 for the heats. wore a LZR kneeskin in five minutes after a reporting scare. i was putting my xglide on at first and it was all gathered at my hips, when huiyu came in and told me i had to report. NOW. so i was panicking and shaking and all sweaty and i told tingting to hurry help me pull it off. i got to the call room just before they closed the heat and i was like trembling before the blocks. phew. but i made it to the finals in seventh place.


came back in the afternoon and put my xglide on in half an hour or so. did a 1.10.68. split a 33.44. it's the suit i tell you. wonder what i would've done without it. probably a 1.12 again.


this morning, did a 34.00 and got in seventh. then came back and did a 33.55. hahah. see, without the xglide, my 50's slower than my 100 split. i hope that even next year i'll be able to do the times i did this year. oh, and i just found out that eamon sullivan's in the country but he didn't take part! gah, i was looking forward to it.


anyway, i saw roger a coupla times to figure out if he could fix my wrist. but he said i should get a CT scan or some other scan to see if there was any bad damage inside cause he thought my ligaments were damaged and bone compression and in-feel and all that other stuff. he said there was a crunching sound in my wrist. hahah. so tomorrow will be a busy day. i have to go for my scan at 10, then the leisel jones workshop at 12 to 4.30? then training. pshh.


i just remembered that i only have..8 days left. fast huh. i'm waiting for what happens AFTER sea games. when i can go to perth for a holiday. FINALLY, a holiday. though it still makes me uncomfortable to be out of the water for so long, so i'll probably go there for a swim while they're having their sunsmart meet. i remember that meet. improved 6 seconds in my 200. hahah.


i'm not sure whether i'm looking forward to the meet, or whether i'm ready for it. i still don't feel.. right. sigh. my events are on day 2 and 4 though. the 100's first. but i really do hope my 200 will go well.

all my injuries are starting to come back. i can't even do lat pulldowns anymore because of my wrist, even if i'm doing 9kg lighter. my ankle's starting to hurt, though i think that's cause i kept pulling the suit off my ankle. there was something wrong with the muscle above my knee these past few days. and my neck's starting to ache again. UGH. WHAT'S WITH ALL THE INJURIES! AT THIS TIME! WTF.

my swimming has entered free fall. my targets have never looked further than they are now.

took about 20 minutes to get into the suit this time. tried it in the water, did 2 34.1s. new pbs. hahah. the first one was a 34.17. i don't know what the second one was, but i raced against kevin. he cheated! anyway, loads of water kept going in and the zip was all wrinkled, so i was wondering if i shouldn't have gotten the 28 and tried harder to squeeze into the 26 when i took off the suit and realised it was a 34. -.- that explains why i could put it on so fast. thought i'd developed super suit wearing skills. pfft. that got me wondering though, if i wore a 34 and did a 34.1, if i wear a 28, would i do a 33? hahah. but i'm kinda worried about the time it'll take to wear the suit.hope it won't take more than 45 minutes.

booyeah, took 38 minutes to get into the xglide i switched. that's so much faster than the other time i did it. it didn't pop a hole when i experimented with bending and all, which is good. but either way, i hope it wouldn't snap the next few times i wear it, PLEASE. i don't wanna pay 600 bucks for it.

i've got more information about SEAG. we'll most likely be staying in dormitories in Laos, WITH NO AIR CON. yeah, shall i repeat that? NO AIRCON. how the heck am i supposed to live now? we can't wear anything besides yonex in the games village and in the competition areas, which basically means everywhere. and they only gave us three shirts, plus the two ayg shirts i'm gonna bring. so somehow, i have to make those five shirts last for the nine days i'm gonna be in Laos, not including the last day when they're gonna initiate us. our tracksuit's quite nice though. and we got the same backpack and luggage they gave for AYG.

we'll be coming back on the night of the 16th and leaving on the 30th. 17 days. i'll miss my bed and my aircon. and my tv shows. /: but at least i can watch new moon when i come back. hopefully it'll still be in theatres. i managed to get sakeenah to come out with me on that day to watch it with me. (: we'll be in phuket for a training camp until the 7th before we leave for Laos. hope they have good beds. i still don't know if i should do what they say and bring my own pillow. i'd actually rather bring my bolster instead. i'll figure it when the date gets closer.